rusty

i'm still not studying very well.

i can't get the terms into my rusty brain.

chinese papers are on monday.

after which, will be a one week break before the official papers will begin.

i need alot of luck, lady or gentleman luck.

whatsoever.

just give me.

now i just want 葵 to be by my side.

giving me his support, love, care and concern.

i love you, 葵 !!

Friendship

on a windy wednesday evening, i got a surprised phone call from thailand...

he's torn, a thai guy, a primary school friend of mine.
i used to dislike him quite abit because he treated me so good, accept my beatings, hurling abuses etc etc.

yup, i should be feeling very blessed that there's a guy who's willing to go through all this, just fer me only.

well, at that time, i'm too young to actually understand what's love or maybe i don't even know love at all.
i'm not sure either.
i just want to play.
i do admit that at that age, i already had bfs. though, its more like having fun with them.

puppy loves were so pure, innocent and holy.
going to library to 'date'.
that's so funny.

alright, back to that topic.

he used to wait fer me to finish my organ lesson at parkway's yamaha and i will sneaked out in e middle of e class to check whether he's there.
cos if so, i will leave e school by another exit.
smart me but he's even smarter.
sometimes i was caught by him and i will think of ways to shake him off.
like making excuses to go to e toilet or turning around and round in e shopping centre until he lost sight of playful me.

when i think back, its quite pitiful of him.

but at times, he did scolded me alot too.
cos i don't understand his love fer me at all.

my parents doted on him and sk alot.
every weekend, both of them will be at my place around noon.
we will then decide where to go etc.
we would bring them out fer meals and at times, will buy them gifts.
sk seldom accept cos he's from a rich family.

but i dunno what caused me and sk's friendship to turn bitter.
i'm very sad cos we used to joke around alot, played alot too.

well, anyway, i'm glad to know that both torn and sk are doing great now.
and most importantly, we are in contact again.

i really treasure this friendship alot.
=)

which style?

post note : my hair was bunned up when i attended the wedding dinner

had a pretty long day....

din study at all...

well...at least i finished reading my book " A Perfect Day"...

finally i'm able to continue reading my da vinci code after a lapse of 2mths...

yeh baby...

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we went to one of the relative's wedding at excelsior hotel....

my hair was bunned up while i was doing my make-up...
intended to have some curls...
but then, after removing e bands, i looked myself in e mirror....
i looked as if a hurricane just swept past me...
horrible....

i changed my mind at the last minute and bunned up instead....

i was decked in a green empire dress with gold stilettos...
i'm feeling happy cos i looked so radiant and most importantly, PRETTY !!!!

wooohoooo......


see which hairstyle is better fer me...
in fact, i already knew the answer...
but still, i just want to know....

thanks lots !!



- bunned up and curls with pulled back fringe -
* i looked older with curls, damn *



- me posing like a model -



- me looking 'slim' here -



- the whole episode -

Blessed !

yesterday was my science practical at cedar girls secondary school...
i got there at about 11.05am...
declared my handphones and mp3...
did some last minute checking on my entry proofs and ic...

then, e teacher said...

"check whether all of you got your entry proofs, ic, calculator and which ever necessary stuff needed fer the practical..."

i fumbled like a lost child....
i had not brought my calculator along....
damn me... why am i so careless?

i looked around me aimlessly... everybody had theirs with them....
except me... =(

i tried ignoring the fact that i had forgotton to bring mine but i can't help it....
i told myself that i can calculate mentally...
hello???? what if the question have any sin in them??
well... actually i'm jus trying to calm myself down....

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the time has came fer us to report to the respective labs...
i took my seat and decided to play my luck...
i asked the invigilator whether they have any spare calculators to borrow me.....
they had !!
i'm so lucky...

when i flipped open the exam papers, quite alot of calculations were needed fer physics...
how to calculate mentally...
i'm just lying to myself only...

as fer chemistry, quite fun cos need to test fer the gases etc...
i smelled ammonia when i stupidly put the test tube right under my nose...
i almost passed out...

but i think my answer was wrong...
it should be zinc and not lead...

why i did not trust my 1st instinct?
haiz..anyway its over already...
i need to work really hard on my theories now....

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i returned my visitor pass and walked out of e school thinking about the practical...
i just followed the mass of students...
smsing on the way...

i din realised that i had reached potong pasir when in fact i wanna get to upper aljunied...
so i reversed my route and tried to get out...
to my dismay, i can't...

i'm lost inside the private estate...
on my both sides are full of alleys, semi-ds and terrace houses....
i walked here and there...
it lead to nowhere...
i'm getting so pissed and i'm perspiring like shit...

there are no cabs in there basically...
i've already made up my mind that i'm heading home to bathe and not to chinese lesson anymore...

finally after more then half an hour of walking inside the maze, i'm out to the main road...
i saw familar buildings and buses...
i knew i'm safe...

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had a long bath and rested a while before accompany wei to town to get pressie fer her bf's upcoming birthday...



- sickening look and smiling happily -



- me looking fat -



- signature pout and smile -



- gloves, brooch and ring -



- the full story -


its 10 more days to the official papers....
work hard !!!!

Suay !

DAMN SUAY !!!

my credit card was retained by e lousy machine on friday...

i never keyed in e wrong pin at all during e 3 tries....

i dunno what happened also...i guess e chip was spoilt...

luckily i din went out during e weekend, if not need to drag mum out to pay fer me...

im so bad....

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i went and took back my card this morning n tried again...

hahahaha... i think e machine don't like me at all...

i keyed in once, and e card was retained again...

im so puzzled by it cos i swear to e god that i, Ivy Teo, did not forget e pin number...

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i told mum and she helped me called e bank and requested fer a new pin and a new card...

so in e meantime, need to cut down on shopping.. =(

i wanna blog compo entry but im too bz wif my upcoming exams...

wish me luck ppl...

photos now...

- e full set of bookmark thingy fr mac -

- whose fingers?

uv my collar bones -

- purple top fr GG<<5>

My Wish !

i always wanted to fly since im a child.....
it just looks like its a dream too far away fer me now.... =(
but im willing to work hard fer it...

i wanna fly across various continents and around e globe...

my 1st ambition when im in primary school was to be an air stewardness...
to me, at that point of time n my young age, its a glamourous job....

its actually every singapore girls' dream to be an SQ girl...
m i rite?
yes indeed...

as i grow older and wiser, i still wanna be an air stewardness....
but of cos im more exposed to different lines of jobs...
like doctor, lawyer, designer etc...

during e recent years ever since i started working in e airport, my dream from den on is :

" I wanna be a pilot !"

"dream on !!"

"ohhhh, c'mon! look at you...u did not have gd grades, possessed a cert which i dun even think its one proper piece, but more like tissue paper."

"please stop dreaming n living in ur own lala land. WAKE UPPPPPP !!!! "

e thought of flying a plane is slowly crashing on me...

i must not deny or brush off e realities ppl pointed out to me...

ohhh well...i can also be an aircraft technician since my pilot dream is down e drain...
isnt tat pretty cool also...

most importantly, i cant fit into e criterias cos im short, have really low qualifications... but at leas i got PURRRFECTTT EYESIGHT !
is that considered a plus point?
hahaha...

thirdly, its diff to even get into aeronautical course...
e cut-up points is freaking low man....
let alone say be an aircraft technician...

i really have to dream on now...

not exactly, i just have to work hard on my coming exams to make my 1st dream comes true...

here i come, wait fer me !

A Day In National Library

thats me n my messy hair.. my face looked so oily..
gosh..... =(

Wednesday 12th October 2005 :

after my history lesson ended at admiratly, i went to tiong bahru fer my simple n yet light brunch...

and i made my way down to National library to study, study and study...

time reached : 3.30pm

e library was so crowded with students of all ages cramming there...

studying fer their coming exams....

some simply jus passing their time cos exams r over....

some office ppl 'eating snake' there too...

lolx...

i walked ard looking fer interesting books to read n found " A Perfect Day" by Richard Paul Evans...

b4 i started reading tis book, i need to study first...

so there i go.. bz remembering facts, dates n names etc fer my history....

of cos in btween, i did fell asleep after such a long time of reading....

til i stopped touching my notes at abt 7.45pm....

fumbled with my hp.... sending smses, taking pixs...

den i realised that im creating some disturbance there....

haha... cos someone jus shifted away.... to another couch....

im such a nuisence.....

but at least i had a great time there studying n gawking at ppl...

time left : 8.40pm

met mum at bugis n bought some much-needed toiletries...

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Friday 14th October 2005 :

later i wil be heading down there to study fer my physics ...

=)

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no. of days left fer science practical : 6 Days

no. of days left fer e papers : 17 Days

no. of days per subject revision : 3.4 Days = 81.6Hrs

no more time to waste anymore...

time is seriously running out fer me....

im sooo bz n stressful....

=(

Tell me e truth !!

to some, they may think its hilarious how e way i portray my thoughts, talks and smirks.... i certainly sound/sounded like a pro joker.... * this solely applies to me only... *

or maybe none....

well... some may even get offended at my unmalicious remarks, fer instance Mr APG.

hence i'm so confused about how others look n think of me now...

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i have come to a point and realised that some people can't take my 'offensive, crude and evil' way of talking.... =(
if not fer J who hit me with this cruel reality today...

i must admit this fact saddens me alot...
it wrecked my beautiful tuesday....but it also shed some light on me, my character and my being...
i don't cast any blame on J cos he doesn't want us to have more misunderstandings....
to further create more scars to this friendship....
i truly appreciated it, thanks !

the past 2 weeks, i have been feeling rather left out by them...
though almost all e activities i'm part of it too...
so i have no slightest idea someone already starting to detest me like i'm some smelly rat..
or maybe even more people...

no wonder, his attitude is aimed at me, myself and i only...
when i asked him something, he's like didn't hear what i said...
alrite, that is still not that bad....
at most times, to him, i'm like a nonexistence human being....
i felt it but due to i don't like to get so sensitive about some stuff, i totally ignored my never-make-mistakes-woman's-intuition...
i even told myself he's lacking of sleep thus his eccentric behaviour is coming back again...
i was freaking 100% wrong this time....

he couldn't take n accept e way i talk and behave cos when he says something, me being e say-things-straight-from-my-mouth-without-thinking-much-about-e-consequences person definitely answer back....
i guess it actually came to a point where he couldn't take it anymore, pisses him so much that he had decided not going to 'talk' to me ever again...
unless there is a need to... i presumed...

he seriously pisses me alot of times too.... me having some magnanimity in a corner of my heart doesn't even blame/f*** him about it....

but now e way it is epicted...
its like i'm in fault since dinosaur's age....
e me now starting to feel some barbarian streaks flowing in me, my blood and my mind...

am i such person?

i'm not sure...

maybe i should just shut up and lead a reclusive life....

issit my style?

issit what i want?

i dunno....

maybe its not what i want but what they want...

please tell me e truth : am i such a person?

No more again....

- i simply luv tis sepia thingy -

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i din study at all on thurs n fri...

on both days, i actually fell asleep after washing up...

i slept like a log...

cannot !!

cannot !!

i can't be like this anymore....

exams r jus 3weeks away.....

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today is sat... i opened my book fer like 1hr n read 3pages...

what am i doing?????

after which, i went with wei to suntec fer bodyshop sale....

i bought 2 showergels @ $15 and a passion bodycream fer $4.50...

how cheap can it be???





i saw a gorgeous top at gg>>5 but i din buy cos mum had warned me about spending more $$$$...

so i refrained myself !!!

woah..... not bad...

dinner cost me $7... i ate until im sooo full.... =)

i managed to spend another $8.90 at carrefour....

hmmmmmmmm.... guess what i had bought there???

i bought 3 cans of corn kernal and a bottle of honey...

yummy!!!

and i took a cab home costing me $7.50...

i spent a total of $42.90 within 2 and half hours...

=(

funds r depleting until its soooo low tat its embarrassing......

i need to work already...

no more tai-tai life anymore...

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i actually wrote out of this entry...

i meant no more of dozing off without studying...

not tai-tai life...

*faintz*

E MOST EMBARRASSING MOMENT OF MY LIFE!!!

i went to e national library opposite bugis las nite in a fit of passing time while waiting fer mum to finish her stuff...

i wanted to borrow books but i din noe what items i need ...

me n my ego face, wif a heart full of pride, dun wish to approach e staff to clarify any doubts i had....

so i messaged wei & hui n asked about it...
when they din reply after abt 5mins...
e anxious me just snapped up...
i called wei...
she told me "your ic wil do, gal !"
=)

so after abt 45mins of choosing books n walking around e library AIMLESSLY...
*my first time there at tis HUGE, MAGNIFICENT & EMPTY library*
im done with my 3 books....

i packed my stuff n went to e self-checked counter to scan e books...

i followed e instructions...
1) choose e language
2) put my ic at e first slot
3) scan e books until e words 'loan confirmed' is shown
4) remove ic when done
5) take receipt

i did all this but then e RECEIPT never came out...
it read " please check with our customer service staff"

i fumbled cos everyone's else machines were doing fine except mine...

so i walked over to e CS counter angrily...
i told e staff what happened in my ya-ya-papaya tone of voice...
she requested to help me check...
i passed her my ic..

guess wat she said?

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" Miss, you actually did not visit e library fer e past 5years, so e computer system did not recognise you as an active member."

I BLUSHED UNTIL MY FACE RESEMBLED A MONKEY ASS !!!!

I LAUGHED OUT LOUD !!!

both of e staff sniggered at me...

" Miss, do not worry about it ok? cos YOU ARE NOT E ONLY ONE ."

ummpphhhhh...

den she told me that registeration is free n proceeded to help me register....

i was SOOOOOOOOOO UTTERLY EMBARRASSED that i kept on laughing at myself fer being so STUPID & SILLY...

at that moment, I FELT LIKE DROPPING DOWN ONTO E CARPET FLOORING N STARTED DIGGING FER A BIG HOLE TO HIDE IN !!!!!

IT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EMBARRASSED !!!!!!!!!!

LUCKILY NO ONE WAS ANYWHERE NEAR ME...

=X

oopps...

ohhhhhhhh yes...

i did not attend lessons today...

yesterday was just blogging about how i will try to go to school even if i sleep very late after studying...

haiz.....

but at least i woke up at 9am to bathe...

started studying from 9.30 till 11.40am b4 taking a tv break...
and den back to my history notes at 1.25 till 3.30...
it was another 1 hr of movie b4 i took a nap till 6.35...
hit books again from 6.40 till 8.15...
meal time until 9.30...
jus stopped studying at 10.30..
now its blogging break..
lolx...

wat a boring entry....
even while i was typing, im alrd started yawning my life away...

tats how stale it is...

=(

Conclusion

b4 i resume studying my physics.... i shall blog abit first...

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wat a boring tues i had...
i skipped lessons cos im too tired to get up fer sch in e morning..
YESSSS !!!!
im stuyding real hard fer my coming exams in less den a mth away...
ohhh gosh... how i wish i can really absorb fast....

*clasping palms*

i watched 'quite abit' of tv b4 i took a nap...
got up late at abt 4+.... wasted half a day doing nutting...
pls scold me, everyone....
i studied a few pages n used com fer like 1hrs+...
haiz...
dun shun me can?

i've come to realise tat its time fer me to really WAKE UP...
i played so much n yet studied so little....
im too far behind...
now im like japan's bullet train....
dashing fer my hopeless life now...

*rolls eyes*

distractions, lack of discipline caused me nutting good but troubles..
so.... i've made my decision....
a firm one though...

i shall live a RECLUSIVE life from tmr onwards...
to concentrate on my STUDIES !

and STOP PROCRASTINATING LIKE HELL....

i will still try to attend classes..
really...
aint lying through my white teeth...
=)

at least now i noe wats a 'monomer, repeat unit and a polymer' is...
heh heh heh...
i used to doze off alot during tat topic....
cos its soooooooo boring...
tats straight-to-my-grave-because-i puked-too-much-blood subject : chemistry

cheer fer me ok?

Make-Ups !

b4 proceedin wif tis entry...
shall post e outdated weddin pix fen jus sent me...



- me lookin so sluttish & somemore my boobs looked so tiny here..arrrgghhh -

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i was repackin my stuff when i saw TONS of NEW MAKE-UPS...

new, unused n left at a corner...

by me.... =(

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im a vain woman...
i luvvv e latest make-ups...
any brand wil do...
most imptly, its e packagin, design n colours tat wil attract my attention...
=)
i hav countless of it...
i gave alot away alrd to my mum's frens...
it may sound wasted to u but isnt it better den leavin them in a corner n rot rite?
* rot : s in expired *

now i hav decided im goin to use e lippies n e powders...
eye shadows once in a blue moon i wil need...
eye liners oso..

i like puttin on e lightest make-up..
so there's virtually no need fer foundation..
i gave mine to my sis...she need it fer work..

pixs :


- mascaras, liners, shadows n eyelash curler -



- powders, liquid foundation, tinted moisturizer n illuminator -



- countless lippies/glosses & my fav dior limited edition stuff -



- includin my lippies set -

sometimes when i reflect... i wil think :
' do i need so much make-ups? i only have one face... when can i use finish? '

den i realise tat... no woman wil complain abt havin so much stuff...

im e same too...

i hav alot of everything....

=)

Study !

i went to marina parade library n cc's starbucks to study on a beautiful sat....
=)
yup.... u ppl must b thinkin abt tis :

'u wil go study? dun bullshit la... tryin to find some solace rite? if u say shoppin i definitely wil believe, cos study is not even ur style at all'...

tis words been floatin in n out of my ears since sat...
anyway..its ok if u think im being a liar or wat..
i noe myself well enuff...

i actually covered abt 2 n a half topics of chemistry...
basic understandin abt tis borin sub...

do i hav a choice?
no i dun but at least i dun wan to surrender..
i wanna give my bestest..
Ivy's motto



- my frappa mocha wif 'e sinful whipped cream & my notes -



- i treated myself to a round of delicious sushi -

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met up jin fer some chattin at ecp....
he's a damn funny boy...

btw...
mum's fren went to watch project superstar's concert on 30th sept...
they bought e cd single n compilation fer freakin $35..
so exp!!

INBORN SYNDROME

i jus bought a pair of black leggings fr 2cm n a BIG PUMA BAG fr Puma of cos...




i need help !!

im born wif ' need to spend $$$ syndrome '...

anybody wanna sponser my shoppin spree??

i'll be very glad....

muacks...

=)