Tell me e truth !!

to some, they may think its hilarious how e way i portray my thoughts, talks and smirks.... i certainly sound/sounded like a pro joker.... * this solely applies to me only... *

or maybe none....

well... some may even get offended at my unmalicious remarks, fer instance Mr APG.

hence i'm so confused about how others look n think of me now...

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i have come to a point and realised that some people can't take my 'offensive, crude and evil' way of talking.... =(
if not fer J who hit me with this cruel reality today...

i must admit this fact saddens me alot...
it wrecked my beautiful tuesday....but it also shed some light on me, my character and my being...
i don't cast any blame on J cos he doesn't want us to have more misunderstandings....
to further create more scars to this friendship....
i truly appreciated it, thanks !

the past 2 weeks, i have been feeling rather left out by them...
though almost all e activities i'm part of it too...
so i have no slightest idea someone already starting to detest me like i'm some smelly rat..
or maybe even more people...

no wonder, his attitude is aimed at me, myself and i only...
when i asked him something, he's like didn't hear what i said...
alrite, that is still not that bad....
at most times, to him, i'm like a nonexistence human being....
i felt it but due to i don't like to get so sensitive about some stuff, i totally ignored my never-make-mistakes-woman's-intuition...
i even told myself he's lacking of sleep thus his eccentric behaviour is coming back again...
i was freaking 100% wrong this time....

he couldn't take n accept e way i talk and behave cos when he says something, me being e say-things-straight-from-my-mouth-without-thinking-much-about-e-consequences person definitely answer back....
i guess it actually came to a point where he couldn't take it anymore, pisses him so much that he had decided not going to 'talk' to me ever again...
unless there is a need to... i presumed...

he seriously pisses me alot of times too.... me having some magnanimity in a corner of my heart doesn't even blame/f*** him about it....

but now e way it is epicted...
its like i'm in fault since dinosaur's age....
e me now starting to feel some barbarian streaks flowing in me, my blood and my mind...

am i such person?

i'm not sure...

maybe i should just shut up and lead a reclusive life....

issit my style?

issit what i want?

i dunno....

maybe its not what i want but what they want...

please tell me e truth : am i such a person?