Random Thoughts 2.

my work is so screwed-up. it sucks big time.

but on a happier note, i will be celebrating my birthday 2 days early on this saturday.

=)

weeeee.

Recommendations And Suggestions.

hey peeps, any nice places to chill?

from what i know and been to :

• daybed bar is cosy
• the loof is warm
• balcony have nice ambience
• tcc/coffee club at raffles place have nice and big bean bags
• fisherman's village is ulu and full of mosquitoes
• c.a.n. cafe full of retro and vintage feel

ohhh gosh, i actually chilled at so little places. hahaha.

or-biang me. * shrugs*

i heard that cafe del mar is nice. can watch beautiful sunset while sipping cold cocktails and chatting happily with your darlings.

the altivo looks good too. sis went there before. raved about the nice scenery and it's windy at night.

i need some recommendations and suggestions by friday.

thanks.

I Need More $$$ Next Month.

it's saturday and i'm home again.

what's new? haha.

rainy weather forbids me from heading to bugis street, thus i stay home to surf aimlessly. enjoy the breezy and chilly wind blowing against my face.

i'm lazy but i really really want to go out to do some serious shopping man.

so i checked my savings account.

i'm left with $100+. how miserably poor.

double sigh........

i was starting to get a wee bit excited about getting my pay next wed and then i realised something.

it's the chinese new year next month and i need $$$ fer red packets!!!!!!!!!!

i calculate and calculate.

i came to an amount.

woah woah woah.

my heart stopped pumping blood fer 1 minute and i stared blankly at my handphone screen.

i started to minus the r.p $, insurance, handphone bill, transport and food, school fees and misc. bills.

huh?!?!?!?!?!

i'm left with NOTHING!!!!!!!!

how can that be?!?!?!?!?!?

how how how?

i haven't really buy CNY stuff yet.

shit...

Boring Sunday.

ohh my, what am i doing at home on a sunday huh?

baby is working, i don't wanna hit town and squeeze with all the people shopping fer CNY clothes.

neither am i willing to go to neighbourhood malls cos it's bound to be filled with residents of that area.

sigh.

i'm bored to death.

no nice movies on cable, nothing much to surf online, friends are all out i guess.

don't feel sleepy at all cos me and baby woke up at 12pm after a good night sleep with the after-effect of drinking DOM.

shiok!!!!!

i packed my wardrobe yesterday before i went out, got rid of the bags i'm not using anymore and some unworn and old clothes. so as to make way fer CNY clothes.

wooopeee!!!!

but then, suddenly i realised that my taste in clothes have changed. * shrugs *

the clothes at GG>5 doesn't appeal to me anymore.

i don't know why but i doubt i can get any decent clothes fer the time being.

i think i need to scout fer it at town next week.

have a good weekend!!

i'm off to stare into the space and till baby call me again.

ciao.

I Became A Devil Last Night. =(

i think i'm a pretty bad girlfriend.
hmmmmm........

ohhh well, just beacuse darling bought a PSP, i literally ignored him the whole night.

his questions to me were always followed with a 2 or 3 words answers.

when this poor dude of mine showed me how clear the resolutions were, i just nodded in a can't be bothered manner and walked away.

i can see the disappointment in his eyes when he was looking at me.

i guessed he can sensed that i'm not very happy with his newly purchase, thus talked very little to me.

i felt a sense of guilt crawling all over my body at that moment.

i so wanna go and talk to him, give him a big and tight hug but i can't bring myself to do it.

i'm so afraid his new gadget will take over my place and so i distanced myself from him.

at least now i learn to be alone.

it's better than being neglected in the future.

i also dunno why i have this foolish and stupid thinking.

maybe i'm being overly sensitive and self-centered?!?!?!?!

***

darling went to bed a short while after me.

he asked was i angry with him that's why my attitude towards him turned so cold?
cos i never treated him this way before throughout the time we are together.

i told him how i felt.

he hung his head low and told me he felt so demoralized after hearing me.

he always yearned to buy one to pamper himself after working so hard fer 1 year.

i too felt that he deserved this little luxury once in a blue moon.

i softened and apologised to my baby.

though he accepted but the disappointment still shows in his eyes.

we made up and fer the lost time, we spent half of the night talking and patting each other backs before falling asleep.

i guess my overly sensitive devil overpowered my weak angel last night. ;P

now i'm glad we are fine.

sorry baby, let you see my angry face. ;)

Face The Fact.

i think i don't dare to face the fact that darling already bought " that ".

super freaking gutless me.

the thought of " that " again. what else. just simply freak me out and i had to blog 3 entries about my fears.

i can see the future. how good. how fantastic.

i can see that he's busy playing " that " and :

• i'm left all alone channel surfing by the tv.
• i'm left alone doing nothing, staring at him and that.
• i sat in front of the pc net-surfing alone.
• i have gone to bed alone 15987856985 times.
• i talked to him 10 times and he replied me once with this " huhz, what you have just said darling? can you repeat again? "

etc etc etc etc etc.

( and all the time i'm sighing loudly just to get his attention )

ohhhhh gosh. why am i feeling this way?

issit because i'm afraid " that " will take over my place in his heart?

or issit because i'm over-sensitive about this new gadget?

i'm afraid.

i hope this weird feeling will disappear soon.

The PSP That's Going To Invade Our Lives.

and so, he gonna pay fer his PSP later.

i don't wanna lose my darling to his soon-to-be PSP.

pray fer me, all peeps out there.



* i have decided to shop fer my birthday pressie tomorrow after collecting my bronze heels. *

My Birthday Wishlist.

i wanted to buy myself a pressie but have no slightest idea what to get fer myself?

so i looked around me and brainstormed again.

haha.



My Birthday Wishlist :

1. good health ( applies to everyone )
2. " that piece of precious paper "
3. happiness
4. an additonal member
5. a decent tote
6. a decent wallet ( just realised that i don't have a wallet, am i a woman? ;P )
7. 1 year supply of slimming pills ( the ad ' 我瘦够了, 你呢? that one )
8. a better job offer
9. save more $$$
10. grow taller ( it's not realistic, i know i know. just wish only mahz. )

still looking around fer my kind of tote and wallet. i have not found one yet.

so darlings, if you happen to read this, please still stick to my request - cash.

hohoho.

love ya all.

My PSP Woes.

i gonna complain and vent my little uneasiness here!!!!!!!!!!!

my darling wanted to buy PSP!!!!!!!

sigh.....

no matter what i said or what reasons i gave him, i knew that once he set his mind on one thing, he will go all out to do it.

haiz......

though i know nothing much about games, but i know very well that how one can be addicted to games once they started playing it.

they will spend any and every of their free time exploring new games, new techniques and reading the game manual.

free time spend on PSP = lesser communication = drift apart

i'm afraid that it will cause us all the above mentioned woes.

how can one help me in dealing with this?

any PSP expert out there who's super addicted to games but yet got time fer communication with their love ones?

i just want to clarify that we are doing very well and still going very strong.

i simply want to know how to cope with it when his PSP come into our lives.

;)

I'm Back!

thanks fer all you darling peeps' concern.

i'm feeling better now though there are still some pain every now and then. i need to take 2 types of antibiotics fer 1 whole week. my follow up will be the next week and i'm on mc till 17th january.

a total of 7 days. my longest personal record. =P

my left hand is still numb and weak from the general anesthesia on thursday.

imagine its more than 3 days already and i feel handicapped still.

bah.

woah and i'm soooooooooooooo THICK-SKIN today. hahahaha.

i was brainstorming while i was trying to take a nap just now.

tadah!!!!

i mass-messaged my darlings that i would prefer cash as my birthday pressie cos i still dunno what i want yet. -_-'''

most importantly, it is to lessen their pain and not to crack their heads in thinking what to buy fer me this year.

you know lahz, women are fickle-minded beings.

one moment they want a perfume, the next they want a oven?

see the vast difference between the 2 things?????

ohhhh well, i don't want to ramble on and on but i seriously want to SLIM DOWN NOW!!!!!

* my stupid sister said that i have been saying that phrase since zillon years ago but i never take any action still. hohoho *

CNY is coming. i want to be able to fit in to some pretty clothes and look beautiful and radiant.

i want my slim silhouette BACKKKKK.

hahahahaha.

have a good week tomorrow.

=)

Welcome 2007.

first thing first, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

time flies like nobody business huh.

exactly 1 month later, i'm hitting a BIG 24.

gosh. how old do i sound?

like 6 freaking more years, i will be 30.

shit. how does that sound again?

damn.