Face The Fact.

i think i don't dare to face the fact that darling already bought " that ".

super freaking gutless me.

the thought of " that " again. what else. just simply freak me out and i had to blog 3 entries about my fears.

i can see the future. how good. how fantastic.

i can see that he's busy playing " that " and :

• i'm left all alone channel surfing by the tv.
• i'm left alone doing nothing, staring at him and that.
• i sat in front of the pc net-surfing alone.
• i have gone to bed alone 15987856985 times.
• i talked to him 10 times and he replied me once with this " huhz, what you have just said darling? can you repeat again? "

etc etc etc etc etc.

( and all the time i'm sighing loudly just to get his attention )

ohhhhh gosh. why am i feeling this way?

issit because i'm afraid " that " will take over my place in his heart?

or issit because i'm over-sensitive about this new gadget?

i'm afraid.

i hope this weird feeling will disappear soon.